i never wake
for i never sleep,
in a nightmare deep
my life replete with
memories of bleak
and raw defeat.
stuck on repeat,
repeat, repeat.

a tunnel echoing
what i can never be,
beating my ears
until they bleed.
it overfeeds,
my head exceeds
with screams of me
in a drowning sea

of voices,
choices choosing me
to be their host
of chosen seeds
to implant their thoughts
like little weeds,
that choke my efforts
into wasted deeds.

-m.p. 06/05/2015